WHATEVER IT IS
Last January I was a whirling dervish of momentum and productivity. This January, #notsomuch. I usually take January off but last year I began the #1000wordsaday challenge and managed to get some great forward motion.
This year I don't seem to have had that. It's summer vacation here in Australia in January. That means sleeping in, long lunches, lazy days. It means no routine, catching up with friends and family. It means the kids are home, the television is on and as soon as you settle in you can be sure someone will want you.
Of course much of that is just an excuse in my case to put off doing what I am not be that inclined to do anyway. The truth is I do have time to write a book blub, to edit a chapter or to write my #1000wordsaday.
Maybe I just haven't felt like it. Or maybe after achieving my many of my personal writing goals I just don't have the motivation to create new ones. All of the goals I've failed to achieve have to do with commercial success. I don't have control over that. All of the goals I have achieved relate to productivity, deadlines and content.
It's possible that after running on the treadmill with limited success I need to rest.
Would I stay on a diet if I didn't lose weight? Would I stay on the treadmill if I didn't get fit? No, I wouldn't. I'd stop and look at my methods and have a serious re-think, so maybe that's why I haven't been so productive this January.
Maybe pulling up my big girl panties means stepping back and re-evaluating how I spend my time and energy so that writing is a joyous and creative experience again. So that's what I'm doing. I'm giving myself permission to step back and think until February.
And then, I guess we will see what shakes out.